Episode: ZERO

zerogage02 @ 2008-05-06T21:09:00

2008-05-07T02:59:55Z

o1. I've Got All This Ringing In My Ears And None On My Fingers, Fall Out Boy
o2. La Vie Boheme, RENT
o3. Sell Out, Reel Big Fish
o4. Disenchanted, My Chemical Romance
o5. The Message, Grandmaster Flash
o6. Flathead, Fratellis
o7. The Worst Pies In London, Sweeney Todd
o8. We Care, Reel Big Fish
o9. If I Had A Million Dollars, Barenaked Ladies
1o. King Without A Crown, Matisyahu
11. Alive With The Glory Of Love, Say Anything
12. Love Of My Life, Santana/Dave Matthews
13. Beyond The Sea, Robbie Williams
14. Hallelujah, Rufus Wainwright
15. Javert's Suicide, Les Miserables
16. I Need A Hero, Jennifer Saunders
17. The Only Difference Between Martydom and Suicide Is Press Coverage,Panic At The Disco
18. I Move On, Chicago
19. Come pick me up, Ryan Adams
2o. Inside Out, Eve Six
21. I Will Play My Game Beneath The Spin Light, Brand New
22. Where You At, Young Jeezey
23. Down Once More, Phantom Of The Opera
24. Complainte De La Butte, Rufus Wainwright
25. Given To Fly, Pearl Jam

I am just enduring one of the most aggravating situations I've ever been through. I was so fed up with work late last year that I started looking for a new job, and found one. Basically I've been with the company for six years and while I can agree that everyone has off-days and goes through emotionally troubling bouts, I am a firm believer in the fact that if you are getting paid to do something you had better damned well be doing it. After six years of constantly registering complaints about the same issue regarding the same people, I had had enough. So, when I told my boss that I was planning on leaving, she begged me to stay saying that the main person I had an issue with was leaving this summer. Her announcement was followed shortly by her offering me that employee's job status/$$$$. The job status actually ment nothing because I was doing everything that the Lead Technician does anyway because she wasn't doing them. Low and behold the ex-lead technician gave her two weeks notice three months earlier than expected totally screwing us over and then left two days later absolutely nailing the coffin shut.
AWESOME! I get a better position and more monies quicker right?
No.... My boss offered the job to another technician who has been there longer than me, but is completely unqualified for the job. Now if you want to be polite because this girl has senority over me, you present her with "I offered the position to Meghann, what do you think?", not "Do you want the position?"... why? Because then that person accepts the position.
So not only do I not get any sort of compensation, but because none of this has been offically announced, I have to keep my mouth shut. I (along with picking up 30 extra hours over the next two weeks because the other bitch left) have to deal with being asked how to do a million things because the new head bitch doesn't know how to do jack, but she's trying to learn as quickly as she can before everything is official. And what does she do? A task as simple as printing down an e-mail has become an extraordinary acheivement.
For example this knowledge was bestowed upon me today: "Meghann, I printed the e-mails this morning, and I placed them over here so that everyone can read them, if you would like to read them now."
to which I replied: "You mean over here? Where we've been keeping memos for the past two years for everyone to read throughout the day when they have free time?"
Or one of my favourites: "Meghann, I scanned outs today. I will be getting a report shortly to show you exactly what I did."
My reply: "You mean the OOS report? The one that's filed right here, and if you look back you can see that I've been doing them for the past year?"
I also like when she admits to complete stupidity.
"Today, I completed and printed all the daily reports by myself and I didn't even have to ask Meghann how to do it!"
"I think April gave us all gift certificates for helping out with shifts because Brenda left, but I shouldn't be getting one, I didn't help with anything extra."
No, you didn't.
I'm the one working 50 hours a week for the next two weeks (during prime PMS time!).
I'm asking for the raise I would have gotten had I been given the position that I was promised, and if I don't get it, I will be giving less than two weeks notice too. Job in line or not.

zerogage02 @ 2008-05-05T22:44:00

2008-05-06T02:47:29Z

I was just reading one of the "writer's block" suggestive questions:

Are you celebrating Cinco De Mayo?

If by celebrating cinco de mayo you mean going to bed early because I'm working 50 hours with no days off this week... then yes.

zerogage02 @ 2008-05-03T01:12:00

2008-05-03T05:13:02Z

Game On.

RULES:

o1. Put your entire music library on shuffle
o2. Press play
o3. Take note of the first 25 songs played (no matter what they happen to be)
o4. Make a list of your favourite lyrics from each song
o5. Post as a list and have your friends guess what song each lyric is from
o6. Google Cheating Sucks

o1. Tell the boys where to find my body!
o2. Tear down the wall aren't we all?
o3. She said: But I can't work in fast food all my life...
o4. I hate the ending myself, but it started with an all right scene
o5. I'm tryin' not to lose my head
o6. She might just want my bones, you see
o7. Ah sir, times is hard
o8. Thanks for callin' us sell outs and not takin' a joke, talkin' shit and coverin' us with spit- we're so glad to know you care
o9. I'd buy you the mooooooooon
1o. What's this feeling, my love will rip a skylight in the ceiling! Giving myself to you now from the essence of my being
11. And when our city, vast and shitty, falls to the axis
12. And in the night, you are my dream. You're everything to me.
13. It's far beyond the stars it's near beyond the moon
14. I've seen your flag on the marble arch, love is not a victory march!
15. And my thoughts fly apart. Can this man be believed? Shall his sins be forgiven? Shall his crimes be reprieved?
16. Up where the mountains meet the heavens above, out where the lightening splits the sea, I would swear there is someone somewhere watching me
17. Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen!
18. When I can't find a single star to hang my wish upon, I move on
19. Come pick me up, take me out, fuck me up, steal my records, screw all my friends, they're all full of shit, put a smile on my face, and then do it again.
2o. So Cal is where my mind states, but it's not my state of mind
21. Oh I would kill for the Atlantic, but I am paid to make girls panic while I sing
22. I'm that dude that got what you need, eyes on the prize, pickin' up speed
23. Say you love him, and my life is over!
24. Princesse de la rue, sois la bienvenue, dans mon coeur brisé.
25. And he still gives his love he just gives it away! The love he receives is the love that is saved!

Have fun... I'll post answers soon...
You're

zerogage02 @ 2008-05-01T23:28:00

2008-05-02T03:35:54Z

Let me paint you a mini-picture:

Late December:
Boss: "Meghann, please don't leave. If you stay, when Brenda leaves this summer I want you to take the Lead Technician position."
Me: (someone say an awesome pay increase AND the most annoying bitch in the pharmacy is leaving?)"Ohkay."

Today:
Boss: "So I gave the Lead Technician position to Sue."

Needless to say, I am furious, but furious in a way that is beyond rage or any sort of emotion. Did you ever endure so much that when some catastrophic event happens, it just switches you off? This was that event for me. I'm done. I told my Boss that she might have given the position to one of the weakest technicians in the pharmacy, but if she didn't give the strongest technician the same raise, then she (I) will leave. So yeah, in the market for a new job, because in all reality who wants to stay some place where things like that happen? All the time. Not me...
Did I mention that my Boss is my aunt?
Fuck this.

zerogage02 @ 2008-04-28T18:19:00

2008-04-29T00:00:49Z

Brenda came into work today and gave her two weeks. FUCKING SWEET! But, of course, Brenda can't be the one who gets all the attention. So, who but Sue would come in next and move her wedding up to this August? Oh, and who would go out and buy the same wedding band that I was planning on buying? (who the hell buys a round cut diamond wedding band when they have a princess cut diamond engagement ring?!) Whatever. Who sat on the phone all day calling wedding places for prices? The fuck. I'm getting a completely different wedding band now. And I'll be taking vacation in august to (hopefully) miss attending the wedding.
*crosses fingers*

Scared to fall in love?
I'm already there. Completely.

What' s the connection between you and the last person that called you?
Matthew is my fiance and the love of my life :)

Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
I turn the ringer off while I'm working or when I'm some place where I shouldn't be using my cell phone.

What happened at 3:00 pm today ?
Amy came into work today and saved me

What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Apples dipped in my peanut butter

What do you want in your life right now?
I want everyone to shut up. I really don't care what anyone has to say or what they are doing.

Do you carry an umbrella when it rains , or just put up your hood?
I don't own an umbrella.

What do you smell like?
a mixture of vanilla and flowers... and maybe mint now that I've eaten one.

What' s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
My Brollie (my cat)

What' s the last text in your inbox say?
From Matthew saying something about how good it is that I ordered what I ordered :)

How' s your heart lately?
Good? My blood pressure is high.

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Lastnight I wore my brother's sweat pants.

Do you have Justin Timberlake music on your iPod?
The fuck I do... meaning absolutely not.

What are you doing tonight?
Um.... watching TV?

Can you sleep in jeans?
Ugh, no

What' s your favorite possesion?
Matthew? Does he count? If not, Photoshop

Something you just don't understand?
The female sex. They're so stupid, and I'm starting to not think of myself as being one of them.

Where were you on July 4th, 2007?
Pretty sure I was stuck working.

Who was the last person you were in a car with?
Matthew. I get to be his taxi... except I'm not getting paid :(

What is the last thing someone bought you?
When I want something I buy it myself with my own money.

When was the last time you saw number 5 on your top friends?
I saw Em yesterday at my brother's birthday party

Do you trust people easily?
No, not at all

Do you care what others think about you?
Just what one person thinks about me.

Do you put your subject on before you type the bulletin or after ?
I never type a subject. Doesn't show up on my journal anyway.

Who was the last friend in your house?
Matthew is in my house all the time.

Are you happy?
Yes, if not a little annoyed.

Is there someone you want to confront?
Oh, yes I can think of a few

Song playing right now?
MXC

What are you doing tomorrow?
Bringing Matthew to school, and then heading up to Boston, and then Man U!

What' s annoying you right now?
You want names?

What are you thinking about right now?
Fugit

Do you wish at 11: 11?
That's gay

Next vacation you're going on?
I have no idea.

What do you hear?
That little TiVo blip...

Would you rather have a boyfriend/ girlfriend or friend with benefits?
I have a fiance, that's better than either one of those!

When was the last time you talked to your number 2?
Did I ever even have a number 2? What's that supposed to mean?

What were you doing at 10am today ?
Fucking working.

What time did you wake up today ?
5:45.... only to sit and wait for a shower at 6:30... so yeah. That sucked.

Do you prefer to call or text someone?
Text.... I type fast fast!

Who knows the most about you?
Matthew

Where do you go when you want to be alone?
In my room, or for a drive.

When was the last time you ate spaghetti?
Saturday? Yeah.... I lost track of the days.

How many pair of flip flops do you own?
You go in my closet and count them all, I have no effin idea.

Favorite reality show to watch?
Hell's Kitchen

Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?
?!?!?!?!?!?!? What?!

What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you’ve been out with?
Matthew is two years older than me.... gross!!!

Ever been in a car wreck?
wreck? No

Have you ever been on a blind date?
Eck, no I'm not freaking stupid.

Are looks important?
They help

Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more??
Hmm.... Amy's getting up there.

By what age would you like to be married?
I will be married by the time I'm 26

Does the number of people a person's slept with affect your view of them?
Not really... but I'll certainly call you a slut if I want.

Have you ever made a mistake?
Me? No.

Are you a good tipper?
I'd like to think so.

What's the most you have spent for a haircut?
Hah! I blow $100 everytime I'm in the salon.

Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?
No.... but I did have one that looked like Sam Neil... Jurassic Park was AWESOME!

Have you ever peed in public?
Like.... out infront of people?! No!

What song do you want played at your funeral?
Amzing Grace? Let It Be? I don't care I'll be dead.

Would you tell your parents if you were gay?
I would, but I'm not... so I won't

What would your last meal be before getting executed?
??? Cheez Itz and Dr. Pepper?

Beatles or Stones?
The Beatles, hands down.

If you had to pick one person on earth to die, who?
I can only pick one person?!

Beer, wine or hard liquor?
Guinness.

Do you have any phobias?
I don't like being in water where I can't see through to the bottom, I'm not too fond of heights, and I'm slightly claustraphobic (but massively!)

What are your plans for the future?
???? Do stuff that I want.

Do you walk around the house naked?
I'm never alone for certain long enough

If you were an animal what would you be?
A tiger....

Hair color you like on someone you're dating?
Whatever

Would you rather be blind or deaf?
blind

Do you have any special talents?
Sure

What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?
Throw my junk on the dining room table?

Are you missing anyone?
Nope

If you weren't straight, what person of the same sex would you do?
Um.... ?????

Where do you want to live when you are old?
In a yellow submarine

Who is the person you can count on the most?
Matthew.

If you could date any celebrity past or present, who would it be?
.... Elvis... he was hott

What did you dream last night?
Nothing

What is your favorite sport to watch?
Football

Are you named after anyone?
The little girl from the Thornbirds

What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
Guinness

Non alcoholic drink?
Water

Do you sing in the shower?
Sometimes... usually about the soap or the shampoo

Have you ever been arrested?
Not yet I haven't

What is your favorite Holiday?
Christmas

Would you ever get plastic sugery?
A nose job, mine sucks

Have you ever caught a fish?
I've caught plenty of things ha ha

zerogage02 @ 2008-04-10T17:02:00

2008-04-10T21:36:36Z

39 Things You Have NOT Been Asked In A Survey... Promise!

Do you know anyone in prison at the present moment?
.::. No, I don't :)

Have you filed your taxes yet?
.::. Done, over, got my money, spent it... done

When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly?
.::. I'm sure I ate some sometime this year.

Do you have a desk in your room?
.::. I do, and it's acting as more of a storage center.

Have you ever gotten naked at a party?
.::. Uh, hell no.

What kind of car do you have?
.::. 2007 Beetle

Are you named after one of your parents or grandparents?
.::. No... like I need my name to be Ellsworth

Do you throw up gang signs?
.::. I get yelled at when I do that

Have you ever broken a rib?
.::. No suh

Who is the most spoiled person you know?
.::. My brother Ryan

Would you rather have a million dollars or true love?
.::. I have true love, let you now also give me a million dollars

Have you ever had sex in church?
.::. Not yet, no.

Do you watch the Grammys?
.::. No... I don't even remember what those are for anyway.

Would you ever work for the border patrol?
.::. Hell fuckin' yeah

Which one word would describe your relationship?
.::. One word? You're insane. Not once have I ever read words that could even merely describe love or how it feels

Would you rather date someone 2 years younger than you or 20 years older?
.::. I would date Gerard Butler... but he is the only person 20 years older than me that I would date... and I couldn't find anyone younger than me LoL

Do you have a porn collection?
.::. I don't keep hold of it

Have you ever been in a interracial relationship?
.::. No... ha ha

Is your birthday on a holiday??
.::. It could end up on Easter one year

Do you have any friends or family in the war right now?
.::. No, not anymore :)

Do you worry about global warming?
.::. Yeah, not my problem

Do you like polar bears?
.::. I don't like bears, no

Have you ever been cheated on?
.::. Yeeeeeah

What slang word(s) do you call marijuana?
.::. Weed

Are you an atheist?
.::. No, I'm nadda

Did you lose your virginity to your neighbor?
.::. Uh, I'm related to all my neighbours....

Did or do you think your childhood dreams will come true?
.::. Eventually

Do you wear your sweetie's clothes?
.::. All the time... sweetie LoL

What's your opinion on gold?
.::. I am no fan of gold.

Are you a country boy/girl or city slicker?
.::. I like both. I could totally live in the city, but I would need someone to drive me around. I can't deal with that stupid traffic.

zerogage02 @ 2008-04-08T17:30:00

2008-04-08T22:09:12Z

There was absolutely nothing to watch this afternoon on television while I was writing and reading, and drawing. Yeah, I need some sort of background noise while I work, but not something that really holds my attention or I'll be too distracted to actually do any work. For instance, I can put on south park, or family guy because I've watched them so much that I can drown them out. I can't put on CSI, or Scrubs because I'll pay attention to them. I can't put on something I absolutely hate, because I'll get so aggravated that I'll need to turn it off anyway.
That aside... I put on 50 cutest child stars all grown up... whatever, don't judge me. I was perfectly fine drowning out the stupid thing when out of the corner of my eye I saw I flash of Elijah Wood. Aw... heart warming!
So I kept it on while they covered him and I got all melty heart-ish. Then a few kids later Dakota Fanning's spot came up (how she got up higher on the list than Elijah is beyond me), and she's fine and and all, but they showed her accepting an award at something... I can't remember- but I'm sure that everyone else does. Well, Orlando had to pick her up so that she could reach the microphone. Ugh, even more heart melty-ish except in the way that pisses me off because instead of being gorgeous and humble like he was then, now Orlando is a jerk. And where the eff is Dominic? The fuck. The only person I can keep track of is Billy Boyd because his band is totally on my myspace :) Yay, because he is not a jerk.

zerogage02 @ 2008-04-01T15:41:00

2008-04-01T20:37:06Z

I stole this from Erin ... hell yeah stealing!

How old will you be in 10 months?
24... yay!

Do you think you'll be married by then?
No, it'll be 14 months untill I'm married. June 6th 2009 baby! It's gonna be a blast!

Seriously, what's the big deal?
With me? Nothing, just trying to get myself out there... art-wise. And I need to get junk framed, make more definite wedding plans... I'm pretty busy now that I'm thinking about it.

What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
A nice recovery for Matthew :) Some pool time by then I suppose, some concerts maybe? Vacation?

Who was the last person to call you?
Matthew :) "I'm heeeeeere!"

Who was the last person you called?
Um... My dad. So that I could upgrade my damned cell phone. Hooray for my new phone!

Do you prefer to call or text?
I text people mostly to keep in touch using inside jokes and "neato" quick notes to let people that I don't usually keep in touch with know that I'm thinking of them, and I call people who I normally keep in touch with for definite happenings (i.e.: "we're meeting here", "I'm on my way home.", "Do you want anything on my way home?"...)

Do you have any pets?
I have my kittie (Brollie), Allen's kittie (Corduroy), and Ryan's kittie (Leonidas)

What were you doing at 12am last night?
Laying awake. My legs were all crampy from wearing heels all day. And I was excited for my new phone... and SWEENEY TODD! Yeah... I was at Best Buy when it opened...

Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
They are still married. And after over 25 years of my father coming home everyday and claiming that he got fired from his job, my mom still believes him although it still has yet to happen. He's funny, and she's gullible. Which I suppose could also mean that he's mean.

What medicines do you take every day?
Yeah. Birth control.

How many states have you lived in?
Massachusetts, North Carolina, Virginia, Pennsylvania, and Georgia.

How many cities/towns have you lived in?
Eight (We moved from time to time within a state)

Do you prefer shoes, socks or bare feet?
My favourite is wearing my UGGs with no socks (like you're supposed to!) SO freaking comfortable.

Are you a social person?
Not usually. I mean there was a while when Ames and I were out every night, and our apartment was the local hang out (leaving enough empty cans to fund the next night's rounds). But Matthew and I stay in now. The same old places are boring to us, and unless Ames or someone calls us with something new and different we make our own different plans (during the month of March we went to at least one concert a week!)

Are you happy?
I'm very happy, and getting along great. I just wish I had more patience with my self.

Do you have a temper?
I guess. I don't throw fits or anything... But I can hold a grudge for years.

Do you think it's ok to date your friends siblings?
??? Why would there be a problem with that?

What do you usually drink in the morning?
A bottle of Fiji water and a medium black tea... sometimes with sugar depending on how tired I am and how long I'll be working.

Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
I love sleeping with Matthew... untill he either knocks me out of the bed all together or he steals all the blankets...

What side of the bed do you usually sleep on?
I sleep in the middle. And sometimes I have to stay there because as many as three cats decide that I'm their favourite... blaaaah

Do you like to cuddle?
I love to cuddle

Have you ever been to Canada?
Yeah. I just remember feeling out of place, beer in vending machines, and the doors said "pousse" LmAo... and we thought it was hysterical.

Have you ever flown?
All the time. Jetblue is the best

Do you prefer the ocean or a pool?
Welp... if I'm in tropical locations the beach... but up here- I'll stick to my pool thank you.

Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
Window seat, I hate the possiblity of sitting next to more that one person that I don't know. Plus I have my own set up for perfect sleep if I nab the window seat.

Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
I drive one now, yes.

What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Send me to Best Buy and I could spend my entire paycheck... ooo yeah

Do you wear any jewelry 24/7
My engagement ring, duh.... nigga

Can you roll your tongue?
A few different ways, yeah.

Who is the funniest person you know?
Ugh probably me. That's being serious... although I think people would pay money to sit in on a conversation between me, matthew, my dad, my uncle donald, and samantha... talking about anything at the expense of someone else.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
No, I have to sleep with real freakin' animals.

What is the main ring tone on your phone?
I've got three going right now: "Lived In Bars", "Given To Fly", and "I've Just Seen A Face" :)

Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
No, but I found this picture of my in little rainbow care bear sneakers... freakin' awesome! That means that I was cool at some point in my life... fo sho...

Do you shut off the water while you brush your teeth?
Um... No

Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or closed?
They're usually open, but either way, it doesn't bother me.

Have you ever had physical therapy?
Not that I'm aware of. But I remember going to physical therapy with my brother and being jealous, because he did awesome things, and I had to sit there and be quiet.

Do you flirt alot?
I flirt jokingly with Matthew... mostly to get him to do stuff that I don't think he really wants to do. (Watching Across The Universe... for example LoL)

Also. Look at my stuff for crying out loud... I (at least) think that it's cool!

My Junk

zerogage02 @ 2008-03-27T21:44:00

2008-03-28T02:03:26Z

So I'm working at my station at work today... which is sort of redundant... anyway: we received a fax.
Normally our faxes are prescription refills from doctor's offices, and notices and memos from our higher ups.
The memo of interest was from a higher up. Namely Roger, our district manager. The gist of the memo was this:

Regarding the Black Sharpie Policy, all notes on prescriptions and receipts written by the pharmacists are to be written in black sharpie. As I was visiting stores yesterday I noticed that this was NOT common knowledge.

EH HEM! Naturally, I thought he was joking. WTF is a black sharpie policy?! Completely pretentious. We'll take note with what we have, thank you. So, April and I sent back an e-mail that went similar to the example bellow:

Roger,

Surely you're joking. EVERYONE knows about the Black Sharpie Policy! Although, would it be understandable to sometimes substitute a navy blue or hunter green sharpie in the event that a black sharpie cannot be found? Please get back to us. (We can't find our black sharpie.)

zerogage02 @ 2008-03-11T20:05:00

2008-03-12T00:07:38Z

Just a question a few people have been pondering. Feel free, anyone and everyone, to take a second to answer this one for me :) If anyone would like to leave a comment explaining themselves... and/or giving me your age, that would be sweet too :) Thank You!

View Poll: Concert Going

zerogage02 @ 2008-03-10T18:24:00

2008-03-10T23:12:27Z

I Got Tickets To Dropkick Murphy's HELL YEAH!!!

zerogage02 @ 2008-02-28T19:39:00

2008-02-29T01:13:21Z

Me, Myself, and I...

Yes. Me. That's what I'm concerned about right now. Not in an all inclusive and selfish kind of way, but in a "what am I going to do?" kind of way. I had been really bummed out about work for a while, and was looking for a new job. So I got as far as an interview, and didn't get a call... so I became discouraged. I tried finding the silver lining in staying where I am. I just get so stressed out sometimes. I am really sick and tired of doing other people's work. I am sick and tired of getting paid shit to do as much as I do, and for doing it better than everyone else.
That sounded completely conceded. But it's true! I never call out, I'm never late, I punch in early, I leave late, I rarely make a mistake, I'm proficient if not excellent at doing everything (inventory, register, production, drop-off, phone, insurance, training, schedule, deliveries...) I'm extremely flexible with my hours. I work holidays, nights, weekends, 12 hours days, 3 hour days, split shifts, whatever I'm asked.... ugh. ANYWAY.
I was told when I looked for this new job that they weren't hiring right away, that it would be a while before I got a call. I waited, kind of forgot about it. And then one day my district manager came in and put me on the spot infront of everyone. He asked if I was leaving, or if I was going to stay with the company. I hadn't received a call, and when I weighed the options then, it seemed like a good idea just to stay there.
In all reality, it maked sense. I'm leaving the area, perhaps the country after I get married, which is only a little over a year away. Did it really make sense to start a new job, and learn a new job for just a year? Who said it would really be better anyway? All I knew is that it paid more, and I wouldn't have to deal with customers. So I told the district manager that I could tolerate staying there for a little more than a year. (Literally, that is what I said: "I can tolerate being here for a year.") He leaves, and my boss tells me when (if) Brenda leaves that I would be getting the lead technician position... which includes a raise. Sweet.
So TWO freaken days later, the company I interviewed with calls me, and they want to hire me. WTF?! Then I start thinking of a million different things. What if Brenda doesn't get into the program that she's trying to get into? Then I would still have to put up with her. I would only get my measly annual raise. I would still have to deal with Tara's shitty attitude and extremely shitty work ethic. I would still have to put up with Sue's mood swings and complete spans of time that last months where she doesn't feel like doing shit. I already told my manager and my boss that I would stay.
What if Brenda does leave in June? Then I would be the boss. I would make the schedule. I would be the go to person. If I had a problem with someone, I could totally not feel bad about reprimanding them because it would be my job to do so. I would get an additional raise....
I decided I would think on the decision. I would take a couple of weeks, see how things were going where I am, and then call the other company and let them know what I would like to do. Things seemed to be going okay. And then this week started happening. Sue is pissing the hell out of me!! And this is what I would have to put up with. We'll discuss in a few weeks what some issues are, people will actually work the way they are supposed to for a few more weeks, and then it will be straight back to shit. It's a constant cycle. It won't change. It wouldn't change unless Brenda left, and I took her position and changed everything. I mean if I actually did the job that I Brenda is supposed to be doing. Heh....
So now I really just want to call that other company and be like "I'll freaken start working tomorrow!!!!!!" but UGH!
I'm confused. I'll figure it out. I just needed to get it off my chest. I already feel better just writing it out. It already doesn't feel as overwhelming. So I'll share some old-school and always good icons.

zerogage02 @ 2008-02-21T18:18:00

2008-02-22T00:49:02Z

Ohkay, normally... (I'm sorry) up until maybe a year ago, I didn't use this journal simply to complain about my daily life. Sure, I like to update, inform, survey, and show my pictures... but complain? No, that was something I did here when I had no life, and nothing better to do.
But TODAY, some customer pissed me off. That makes me sound like a teenager complaining about having extra homework. But it did make me that mad! One of our old and cranky and pompous customers called me this morning and may I report that the conversation went like this.

Me: "Hi! This is Meghann, how may I help you?" (in THE most fake cheerful voice, so that if the customer is pissed off, maybe I'll make them happy. Maybe.)
Customer: "Oh I hope you can help me, because I have no idea what I am supposed to do about this!"
(This aggravates me right off the bat. Why would you call me in the first place if you thought I wouldn't be of any help?)
Me: "Oh, well, what seems to be the problem?"
Customer: "This is [so & so]I have tried all morning to get the cap off of my bottle, and I just can't do it! I normally have no problem, but I screwed it on crooked and now it won't move! I always take my medicine in the morning, and I don't want to mess up my schedule, I just can't! I don't know what to do, I can't open it, I tried everything, everything I could think of! Is there anything that you can do for me?"
No. Really, she did go on, and on like that.
Me: (after looking up the patient's information)"...You live in an assisted living facility. Ask one of your neighbors to help you?"
Customer: "I really don't want to bother anyone. I just, I never have a problem with these stupid things, I'm fine with these caps, but I did it wrong, and now- well is there anyway that you could get the cap off?"
Me: "If you come down here with the bottle, sure, I'll open it for you."
Customer: "Oh, I can't go out. I can't drive today, and I need to take this medicine soon. What am I supposed to do, break the bottle open!? Don't you have a contraption that could remove this for me?"
Me: (Fed up)"We do, but you have to come down here to use it."
I am now at this point so amazed that I find the situation less annoying and more amusing. Although, this lady is still old... so I'm still mad.
Customer: "I really wish- Oh! Oh I just got it open!"
Me: "Well that's good! How about from now on we give you those easy flip caps? That way this doesn't happen again."
Customer: "No, I don't have problems opening these caps. You can keep them the way they are. It's just this one, I can never get it on right. What am I supposed to do? Leave the cap off so that this doesn't happen again? That doesn't make any sense! I guess I could just slightly sit it on top of the bottle and hope that I don't knock the bottle over."
Me: "You could come down here and get a different cap."
my god
Customer: "Well no, I'm fine now. I just wish you could do something about this cap."
Me: "Not today, I can't."
Customer: "Ohkay, thank you."

WTF?!?!?!?!

zerogage02 @ 2008-02-07T20:58:00

2008-02-08T02:30:49Z

A. List ten habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag ten people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it."

o1. My fiance is the most beautiful man in the world.
o2. I am VERY opinionated.
o3. TiVo'd: South Park, Family Guy, Futurama, CSI, Colbert Report, Man Vs Wild, Scrubs, NFL, MLB... NEED THESE.
o4. I'm really pissed off that Heath Ledger OD'd!!!
o5. I have way too many bridal magazines laying around. I should clean
o6. I have an awful habit of starting a new idea for a story or what-have-you and then never quite finishing my work.
o7. I sing very well, in my car
o8. If I've watched it, I can recite it. Yeah.
o9. I have four tattoos (workin' on a 5th) but *gasp* where could I put it?
1o. I'm into crime. (Like reading up on infamous mobsters and such, duh!)

And I'm not tagging anyone, because I'm not sure anyone reads this who hasn't already done it... Steph... LoL

Also, I'm watching TV and this commercial came on advertising Russell Stover Chocolate assortments. It went on about how Valentine's Day isn't Valentine's Day until you have received a box of their "delicious" chocolate assortment in the red heart shaped box.
Freakin' yeah right! If Matthew ever showed up at my door with a box of crappy chocolate I would be PISSED. Not that I'm being spoiled or anything, I mean, a gift is a gift is a gift... But to say that Valentine's Day is a waste until your significant other shells out $5 to get chocolate... that's falsified information right there!
Let's start off with um.. I don't know. A card? I'd rather have a card than a box of chocolate. (This is just me, by the way) I am fully aware that there are full-fledged chocolate addicts out there, but not me! And even on the rare occasion that I am craving some of teh cocoa... Godiva please! If I'm going to enjoy chocolate (and all of it's health "benefits"...) it is going to damned well be the best around!
Even better... how cool is that for a guy? Do you know how much a box of Godiva truffles goes for? Like $50 for a nice box. There's the Valentine's gift right there! (Don't forget the romantic card!) You're done! You can even shaaaaare. Sweet!
.:sigh:.
Or better... I have a sweet list of shit that I want on Amazon.com LoL
Oh yeeeeeeah.

zerogage02 @ 2008-01-29T15:51:00

2008-01-29T20:53:59Z

Eh...

I made this:

: (

zerogage02 @ 2008-01-29T14:06:00

2008-01-29T19:16:17Z

INTO THE WEST
annie lennox

Lay down
Your sweet and weary head
Night is falling
You’ve come to journey's end
Sleep now
And dream of the ones who came before
They are calling
From across the distant shore

Why do you weep?
What are these tears upon your face?
Soon you will see
All of your fears will pass away
Safe in my arms
You're only sleeping

What can you see
On the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea
A pale moon rises
The ships have come to carry you home

And all will turn
To silver glass
A light on the water
All souls pass

Hope fades
Into the world of night
Through shadows falling
Out of memory and time
Don't say: «We have come now to the end»
White shores are calling
You and I will meet again

And you'll be here in my arms
Just sleeping

What can you see
On the horizon?
Why do the white gulls call?
Across the sea
A pale moon rises
The ships have come to carry you home

And all will turn
To silver glass
A light on the water
Grey ships pass
Into the West

"I was naked for a day; you will be naked for eternity."
- Geoffrey Chaucer

zerogage02 @ 2008-01-15T17:50:00

2008-01-15T23:20:42Z

Just looking back at Red Vs Blue tee shirts.... and here are some of my favourite quotes:

"I like me" - Caboose
"I hate the bands that you like" - Simmons
"I don't know! Why would you give us a tank that nobody could drive?" - Tucker

"Caboose: Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?
Church: Did you just call my girlfriend a cow?
Tucker: No, I think he called her a slut."

"Caboose: I was helping watch.
Andy The Bomb: What if something had happened?
Caboose: I'm sure I would have seen it."

"I'm no stranger to sarcasm, sir." - Grif

"Church, women are like Voltron. The more you can hook up, the better it gets." - Tucker

"Come on dude, celsius sucks!" - Tucker

"Frank DuFresne: I'm a pacifist.
Caboose: ...You're a thing that babies suck on?
Tucker: No, dude, that's a pedophile.
Church: Tucker, I think he means a pacifier.
Tucker: Oh, yeah. Right. Man, I was totally thinking about something else.
Church: That's real classy, Tucker."

"Lopez: Me llamo Lopez.
Grif: Lopez! He just said "Lopez!" I understood that! I can speak Spanish!"

zerogage02 @ 2007-12-18T18:22:00

2007-12-18T23:29:31Z

More than a little miffed about the Sweeney Todd situation.
The movie opens on Friday, but the closest place to me is the Opera House Theater in Newport. Which, Newport isn't THAT far... I just hate driving out there (on a Friday night to boot!). The traffic is awful, the ticket price is probably through the roof... ugh. Buuuuut I really want to see it- so I'll go!
Freakin' Newport.
Right (Like I'm not having my wedding there or anything!)

zerogage02 @ 2007-12-15T13:29:00

2007-12-15T18:47:02Z

Can't Duplicate My Answers!!!!! Have Fun!

01. Name something you use in the shower
razor blade

02. Name something a football player wears under his uniform.
under armour

03. Name something people hate to find on their windshield.
snow!

04. Name something a man might buy before a date.
why don't they show up with a box of chocolate anymore? LmAo

05. What's another word for blemish?
pimple... ew!

06. Something you'd cook in the microwave.
spaghettio's (FYI- 'ghetto'... right in there)

07. Name a piece of furniture people need help moving.
Big TV

08. Name a reason a younger man might like an older woman.
make up

09. Name something a dog does that embarrasses its owner.
poop

10. Name a kind of test you cannot study for.
pregnancy test

11. Name something a boy scout gets a badge for.
shooting shit with a bb gun- and if they don't, they damned well should!

12. Name a phrase with the word 'Home' in it.
"the ships have come to carry you home"

13. Name a sport where players lose teeth.
football

14. Name something a teacher can do to ruin a student's day.
handing out grades right before vacation

15, Name a way you can tell someone has been crying.
sniffling

16. Name something found at a Séance.
quija board?

17. Name a bird you wouldn't want to eat.
a um... finch?

18. Name something that gets folded.
underwear- nerd!

19. Name something a person wears even if it has a hole in it.
crochless panties

20. Name something that gets smaller the more you use it.
shrinky dink

zerogage02 @ 2007-12-10T18:11:00

2007-12-10T23:41:40Z

And hey, why not?

40 Secrets About You.

[One] Who were your last 4 texts from?
Matthew, Mom, Sam, & Sam

[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
Ft. Knox LoL

[Three] What is your middle name?
April

[Four] Your current relationship status?
Engaged :)

Five] Does your crush like you back?
Better, he asked me to marry him!

[Six] What is your current mood?
Happy :)

[Seven] What's your mom's maiden name?
Banville

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
purple/ grey

[Nine] Are you horny?
Sure

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
Nope, everything's fine

[Eleven] Where was the last place out of town, that you went to?
On a cruise

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
No

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
Work

[Fourteen] Do you have a fondness for gnomes?
Eck- No!

[Fifteen] Who can you tell anything to?
Matthew

[Sixteen] When was the last time you showered?
This mornin'

[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
???? Engagement party? My dad made a "my little princess" speech...

[eighteen] Where are you right now?
Home

[Nineteen] If you could have one super power what would it be?
Telekenesis

[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their eye balls... ha

[Twenty-one] Who is your favorite celebrity train wreck?
What's that? Oh... does Orlando count? He's more of a poor thing now...

[Twenty-two] What did you dream last night?
I can't remember

[Twenty-three] Favorite color?
Black

[Twenty-four] What is one thing that annoys you on TV?
That "duh" commercial

[Twenty-five] Do you still like kiddy movies?
Well, I like teen movies... a lot

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Nothing

[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other language?
French

[Twenty-eight] What's your favorite smell?
Prada

[Twenty-nine] Describe your life in one word.
Coooooool

[Thirty] Have any tattoos?
Four

[Thirty-One] What are you looking forward to the most?
Christmas

[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?
Family Guy

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing?
???? nothing

[Thiry-five] What do you want to be doing?
Like, writing probably

[Thirty-five] What are you listening to?
Family Guy

[Thirty-six] Do you like working in the yard?
Noooooo

[Thirty-seven] If you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
Uhhh, it will be Holden

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around the person you like?
Nope

[Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?
Dark brown

[Forty] Why did you last cry?
I already answered that, pay attention!

zerogage02 @ 2007-12-10T18:03:00

2007-12-10T23:04:14Z

Yay! I have 2 more things to buy, then I'm done Christmas shopping.
Also, job interview on thursday- I can't WAIT to quit my job!!!!!
HATE FUCKIN' CVS

zerogage02 @ 2007-11-19T19:49:00

2007-11-20T01:03:08Z

Yay

I feel accomplished.

Paid my bills

Lost 5 pounds

Applied for some more jobs . . . because it's to the point that I cannot stand to go into work anymore. I just hate it!

Picked my reception site. Price... eh... but I LOVE it!

And hey, not really my accomplishment, but Pats = 10-0

zerogage02 @ 2007-11-17T11:51:00

2007-11-17T16:57:42Z

Just a couple quick questions. Because- I pretty much stripped my computer and reloaded junk...
What are you kids using to get music lately? I mean I have iTunes.. but you know, I was thinking in a more piratical sense of downloading... heh.

zerogage02 @ 2007-11-05T21:08:00

2007-11-06T02:08:59Z

Also....
Also, I've decided to post some fan-fiction up here. I have no idea what you guys are into right now. I know what I'm into though, and I guess that's really all that matters. So, what I'll do is post a few excerpts from some different works, and just let me know what you think. Maybe I'll even use some on hand livejournal resources to make a *gasp* poll!!! LoL
Again. Fan Fiction...

*** None Of This Is Rated Per-Say... But Probably Very Bordering On R If Not NC-17 Eventually/ At Times. IE: Language, Sex, Violence..... Also Half The Characters Are Not Licensed To Me. But The Ideas Are All Mine. Don't Steal Or I Kill You. Kay Thanks Bye ***

Excerpt from "Ghost Of You" My Chemical Romance Fan Fiction:

There they were, his fingers, covered in dark, slippery blood. The air was heavy, and he seemed to blink in slow motion. The blood was still there, and it was starting to drip and fall, splashing and staining the sheets and blankets on his hotel room bed. His heart was pounding painfully slow, and in time with its next agonizing beat, a figure appeared beyond the view of his bloodied fingers.
After all the time that had passed, and after all the years that had gone by, it was still his first instinct to lunge forward to grab her. To save her. To hold her… one more time. Then she was gone. She was gone again. Blue eyes still seared, still burned clearly as a vision in front of him. Gerard closed his eyes again. “Don’t leave!” His mind wailed. “Please don’t leave me again!”

Excerpt From "Untitled" Gundam Wing Fan Fiction:

“Who is it?” Miko called in a forced cheerful voice from her desk inside her room. She wondered if Quatre was at the door, and if he was, could he feel what she was hiding. She suddenly wanted to talk to the Sandrock pilot.
“We need to talk.” Came the distinctive monotone of Heero’s voice through the door. The blue eyed boy waited patiently at the door for Miko to open it and could hardly contain himself once she arrived. “Why did you lie to me?” he growled, and stalked into the room letting the door slam shut behind him.
Miko drew back into the room in surprise. “What the Hell are you-“
“You’re pregnant! Why didn’t you tell me that?!” he sounded on the verge of becoming hysterical. He took the girl by her shoulders and pulled her toward him. “You’re the best pilot I’ve got, and I can’t let you fight tomorrow!”
Miko tried to pull away from Heero, but the boy’s grip was too strong, and she was weakened from the day's emotional distress. “What the fuck do you care Heero?!” she tried to growl back, but her voice came out hoarse and choked. “I’ll fight if I want damn it!”
Heero just stared down at Miko and his brow furrowed in confusion. In the silence he had a chance to calm down and he studied the slightly shorter girl. She looked exhausted and worn out. Her voice had been strained when she yelled back at him. Her blue eyes were red and swollen. “Anata no kimochi ga taisetsu desu.” He breathed and looked away from her. “I won’t let you put yourself through that.” He finally said in a softer and kinder voice. “I want you gone tomorrow; gone home.”

Excerpt From Untitled Harry Potter Fan Fiction:

George chuckled to her left. “You spent the whole of last night in your room, with the curtains drawn, reading through anyone and everyone’s potions notes.” He raised a hand as Brody looked up at him, her purple eyes glowing. “I know! A very close source told me!”
She was outnumbered on this one, and so she didn’t even bother to protest. Especially after the looks she received from Angelina daring her to insist she hadn’t been doing exactly what George had just said.
Fred chimed in from the seat directly in front of her. “I already promised I wouldn’t sit anywhere near you.”
Hermione laughed. “See? Then you’ll be fine!” She closed the book she had been reading. “Besides, I owed you for the help with muggle studies.”
Brody shrugged and smiled again. “Thank you.” She repeated and sat staring at the paper for a few more minutes, trying to commit it to memory. She hadn’t even bothered with the roll that was on her plate. In fact, she hadn’t paid any attention to it at all until she noticed out of the corner of her eye that George’s face was bright red. When she looked up, she could see that he was holding back his laughter as best he could.
With caution, she followed his eyes to where five other items of food now rested around the piece of bread that had been sitting alone and undisturbed up until one of the fiasco twins had decided to take charge. “What on earth are you doing?” Brody asked. There was no trace of aggravation, or anger in her tone at all. Bright purple eyes gleamed at George, who smiled back.
“Practicing.” The red headed boy answered nonchalantly. He was in the process of adding bits of parsley from his younger brother Ron’s plate who was five people away and across the table.
“Practicing for what?” Brody asked hesitantly once she realized that she was receiving a few aggravated looks. The food, she had just realized, was from other people’s plates.
“The potions exam we have after lunch.” Fred answered feigning astonishment at the fact that Brody had forgotten about the exam. “We do have one. You didn’t forget did you?” he asked with a frown. His frown was met with one of Brody’s own.

View Poll: Fan Fiction

zerogage02 @ 2007-11-05T15:29:00

2007-11-05T21:36:41Z

.:sigh:. Matthew is my best friend.

Which is right on. I mean, you are supposed to marry your soul mate and best friend. And the ".:sigh:." is more of an "I love"... but also because right now is really tough for me. And right now, Matthew is pretty much the only one who understands and is my cheerleader in all this. Don't get me wrong, Amy totally understands, agrees, and riots along with me... but she really can't help me much. I can't help her much either. And Sam is right there encouraging me...

I freaken hate my job. I haven't always hated it. Up until recently I haven't even hated it- just hated one person there. How many times do Amy, Sue, Beth, and I have to complain? If I had kept track of how many times we have complained previously, I could give you a number, because this past time was the last time. I'm sick and tired of how one person can fuck everything up and still have the boss take her side. I'm so mad at the fact that everyone gets along and runs the pharmacy PERFECTLY until this one person is involved.

Our pharmacy had the highest scores it has ever had the three or so months this person was on leave. (Three months? For pregnancy? Why, because she's a weak, pathetic, and lazy person.) Then this person comes back, openly admits she doesn't want to be there, and acts in the same manner. Talks on the phone all day, shops when she should be working, annoys the hell out of everyone by talking about all her family's drama all day... including her own. Which none of us care about. Just because her husband sucks and she shouldn't have had two kids with him, and she feels the need to justify herself to us by bragging about how much they have... none of us care! Ugh, she's just a miserable, selfish, scumbag. And so is her husband.
Now, whatever. Maybe I seem insensitive. Either way, none of this should have any bearing on "work time". When you're at work- fucking work. No one else brings their personal life into the work place, or atleast they don't let if affect their job. This person at one point had the schedule of 8-2, monday through friday, because her husband wanted her to. She still only works past 5.30 one day a week. Did I mention that this person is the Lead Technician? That's right: she's in charge of all of us. She's supposed to be our go-to person, she's supposed to set an example, she's supposed to make the schedule, she's supposed to drive us, train us, be there for us...
Aside from her complete lack of leadership, she doesn't do anything in her job description except show up for work. One of the pharmacists has to make the schedule now. I'm being assigned to jobs because I'm (and I quote) "The best at this, and I'd rather have you than anyone else." Yeah... My boss.
My boss who in the same sentence offered me the lead Technician position then went on to say that if I couldn't tolerate the current lead technician then I would have to cut my hours, transfer, or find another job. Apparently not acknowledging someone when they're on the phone, not working, and spouting off drama is considered harassment. ???
Thus, I'm looking for a new job. Thus, Amy is looking for a new job. So, when Amy and I leave ASAP they'll be left with two full time technicians (one who doesn't even work), two part time technicians (one of whom does not give a shit and probably won't stay once Amy and I are gone), and two new hires who aren't certified yet... Have Freaken Fun!

My big burden is a new job. Do I want a new job? Hell yeah I do... I need one. But where I don't have a four year degree yet, and I'm getting married in less than two years, and right after that moving around the country where ever my new hubby is stationed... is it logical to start a new job and leave in that short amount of time? I've been at my current job for over five years. So I don't know what I'm doing yet. Can I suck it up for another two years? I might be able to, I will probably need happy pills to do it, but I probably could. I know I don't want to. Now that Amy and I have seen where everyone stands (it seems no matter what), we don't want anything to do with working there. I literally have to take a deep breath before I walk in the door and brace myself. Throw on the old mask, you might say. I don't think I should have to do that. Apparently no one but Amy and Sue (who have to do the same) agree with me. I guess I have some time to dwell over this.

Now for some good ol' creative writing. Yay.

[EDIT] That was kind of long. I put it behind a cut LoL